Friday, October 7, 2011
do you want to get better?
what is better?
can't sleep.
i've been tasting these weird metallic tinge every morning, coupled with palpitations.
go that jittery feeling. nauseating, sick.
and feet are always cold. and i've gotten into this habit of scalding baths.
they'd be fine if it wasn't for the frequency and the sort of compulsive,addictive nature of it.
started off as 1, then 2, now 3 and on non-school days, 4, or as many as i can sneak in without anyone calling me out. feels numb
the depravity of the human spirit. our crude thrill seeking ways, of perversity.
scares me abit sometimes. until i realise that i'm part of this generation, as much as i try to shun and ignore this fact. truth is i'm not much better.
in trying to escape the system, i have fallen right back into it's grasps.
worse still, i have failed in it's eyes.
tired. but that's a good thing right?
missing those worry free sleeps, even if they are dreamless and monotonous.
in a fat chubby unicorn we found peace.