Monday, December 17, 2012
ethereal
ephemeral
escape
everything's so transient
temperamental
fade away
i want you so much. do i?
i think if i wanted to enough, i would break free.
fly away. sever the strings that tie you down.
sometimes i hate how everyday, every moment i share with you
is like another fine thread, almost invisible. but tangible still.
tying me down. like this story, that i once read.
the magician who asked for her companionship.
and won her over with an adzuki bean stew
just like how her grandmother used to make it.
and the raven, with his tongue cut off couldn't warn her early enough
whilst the magician slipped in,disguised as a mouse to tie his invisible thread round her buttons.
maybe one day, i'd lose who i am, to you.
but i don't ever want you to leave.
i think you picked the wrong girl.
maybe you saw me on one of those good days.
and then i tried to
And then I tried to
upkeep that girl
Who I wasn’t.
It’s not your
fault, its mine.
Everything’s just
an illusion. Don’t you see?
I love how you’re always so sure about things.
But it scares me sometimes, you know.
What if one day you
woke up, and finally realize and see me for who I am?
And decide that no,
I’m not what I am.
And once you decide
on something, you don’t ever change your mind eh?
I want to run away.
I want to sleep. Forever.
I’m tired of this
world. Tired of fighting against everything. The prejudices. Judgement.
Expectations that I’m never going to fulfill.
I’ve tried. Living in
the future, looking forward.
Creating my own
world.
How long till these
wall crumble, and let the real world in.
How long till
reality strikes its fatal blow?
Let me sink. In the
tranquility of the sea.
I would, let the
waves wash over me.
And just free fall
down to the depths of the ocean
If only I wasn’t so
much of a coward.
Don’t want my
bloated corpse to be the last thing you see.