Sunday, March 31, 2013
candy
coffee
p
water
iced water
tea
finish apps
submit documents
pay fees
check mail
reply messages
read updates
clean room
clear files
spring cleaning
sweep floor
mop
wipe tables
run
swim
skate
re-join team
roller derby
lift
crunches
situps
yoga
intern
volunteer
learn something new
jello
oatmeal
seaweed
fruit
veg
soup
49
47
45
i want to feel alive, awake again.
in control.
not just passing my days in a blur of hedonism
problem.
take "break", eat snacks.
bored.
eat out.
procrastinate.
binge.
binge.
binge.
how pathetic is that.
that our only past time is eating. the constant gorging of food.
we are better than this.
focus.
get stuff done.
deferred gratification.
there's something else.
something better waiting for us at the end
something better than carbs, lipids and over processed junk
where did the perfect control
and self restraint go?
order, structure, plans.
schedules and timelines.
we want to be gorgeous.
effortlessly gorgeous.
or at least we're going to appear to be.
the secrets they hide,
walking down the street.
caramel frappe in hand
lunch
cheesecake.
split half. with three quarters left over.
its a lie.
they're all on a perpetual diet.
the fine balance between
chaos and disorder.
Light as a feather.
Happy as can be.
Happy as can be.
Everything’s cool as long as i’m getting thinner.
Don’t eat dinner, you’ll be thinner.
Monday, March 11, 2013
i want to crawl into a hole of hibernation.
i want to cocoon myself in oblivion.
i want to?
do i?