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and lemons.and oranges.
i like oranges. they're really pretty. and nice.like goldfishes. and the sun.


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Floating in dreamland. where all the foods are imaginary.
and all the people are nice.
And even if they weren't we could always wake up.

Oneday.

tomorrow. (maybe)

The Girl



>>is way too fat.


Height: 5'7"
CW: 106 (47.7kg) D:
HW: 119


Old Goals: 112!

GW1: 110! (50)
by 23 mar


GW2: 107 (48.5)
by 31 mar

REACHED!
(11 Nov)

GW3: 105 (47.5)
by 20 Nov


GW4: 103 (46.5/47)
by 31 Nov


GW5: 100 (45.5)
by 31 Dec



UGW: 99 (45)


UUGW: 97

UUGW: to be ethereal. weightless. like those beautifully crafted paper dolls and the air.


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Thursday, March 25, 2010

i feel disgusted.

i just ate a complete bowl of noodles.
and a whole packet of chips. oishi's oheya bbq chips. i thought i would try it and see if you know, if attempting to eat normally would actually make things better...
well apparently not. i should have known. since i already wasted more than half a year last year trying to get back to normalcy. needless to say it had spiralled into nothing but a total disaster.

no i didnt feel myself getting any better except to lose all my discipline and order in life. basically i just turned into a big fat slob. actually, a big fat, lazy slob.
i wasn't getting any of my school work done either. so much for that.

And now i'm stuck with all that freaking shit load of fats in me.

why in the heck of the world did i think that eating the crappy canteen food would help? it @#$*ing doesnt.

i feel like purging. now. URGH.
cept i'm still in school.
and it takes too damn freaking long to get home.
plus i think it's too late.
i just tried, and tasted nothing but acid, slightly tainted by the lingering taste of the oheya chips.


but i can still feel it. it's so horrible.
and repulsive.
the horrid feeling of heaviness is weighing me down.
i feel like a sack of cement.

on the bright side, at least it'll wean me off the noddles and the chips.
i swear i'll never touch any of them till hopefully forever.

sighs. though i wonder if i'll follow through for the oheya chips though...
i used to have such a huge thing for them.
despite the fact that i've gotten quite sick eating them on multiple occasions.

god, don't i ever learn.

oheya chips=me being sick=bad=DONT EVER EAT IT AGAIN



you know what, i'm actually going to really try to not eat oheya chips again. ever.

it's going to go into my list of unsafe foods.


hopefully this wont offset the weight i've lost the past few days D:
i just got down to 50kg today morning.
on the slightly "kinder" scale. [ i have two, one always reads 1+ kg heavier than the other]

which makes me 110lbs!

sighs.
i WONT let these moments of weaknesses ruin me.

when i was 99 lbs everything was so perfect.
school was great.
i got everything done on time
i had an entire extremely close knit clique of friends
i managed to make it into one of the top 10 positions in a school running event.
plus i outran like 3 other girls who were on the school track team and trained 3 times a week.
my art was getting As and i actually enjoyed it.
i actually participated in school events.

and now i'm going to get that life back.

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