Monday, March 7, 2011
god i feel like screaming. or crying or tearing my hair out.
i'm not even sure why.
cause there's so much fucking stuff. and there's so many fucking problems that are going just plain wrong.
and i'm swearing. god.
and all i want to do is just shut myself up in a nice empty quiet room and just sit alone for a while
i just want to run away and scream
i can't stand how everything is spiralling out of control
and how i have to plaster a smile on my face and act like everything's so bloody brilliant and cheery.
to pretend that i'm managing, that i'm doing alright. and that i'm handling things.
fuck it.
but please still let me BELIEVE.
hold on. and believe.