Sunday, October 23, 2011
maybe if i write it down, in ink and paper.
(fine, in text/pixels on a computer)
then i'd get it done.
instead of fasting then binging then fasting again.
In General:
1) get some chewing gum
2) 2 litres of water everyday.
Diet:
Breakfast:
1 egg + 1 pack of milk for breakfast. (70 + 150 = 220 cals)
Lunch:
if i'm coming back home early
1 papaya (50 cals)
OR
if i'm staying in school late
1 tofu + veg + 1 tomato + 1 nugget and water based soup.
(70 + 50 + 50 + 90 + 20 = 280 cals)
Dinner:
if i'm got back home early
1/2 a plate of whatever there is for dinner (< 500cals)
OR
if stayed in school late
chicken/salmon + watermelon! (or whatever fruit i can find)
(120+100 cals = 220 cals)
Extra Snacks ( <200 cals each) : Max of 2 per day
Coffee with milk
3-7 Gummy bears
1 chocolate oatmeal biscuit
1 slice of cheese
1 fruit
2 glasses of fruit juice
1 glass of soy milk/chocolate milk
1 serving of jello
1 cucumber/broccoli
Exercise:
Training on Wednesday, Fridays and Saturdays
On days with no training,
Minimum of 50 Pushups
50 Abs stuff
rests are allowed in between each set of 10.
On good days, i will try to increase it to 100 each :)
+ a 5km run if i have time during the week
Total Calories per day:
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Max per day: 220 + 50 + 500 + 400 = 1170 (coming home early)
Max per day: 220 + 280 + 220 + 400 = 1120 (staying in school)
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Average per day: 220 + 280 + 170 = 670
(breakfast + lunch in school + 2 small snacks)
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Good days: 30 + 50 + 200 = 300
(eggwhite + papaya + 1 snack/coffee/soymilk/milk)
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Max per day: refers to the maximum number of calories i will/can consume (if all things go wrong)
Average per day: referes to the amount of calories i aim to eat on a average day
Good days: obviously refer to good days where i consume less calories :)
yes, the calories that i'm taking in is definitely on the high side.
this is because i'm not exactly ready to dive into full recovery yet, but at the same time,
i've experienced enough side effects from my horrible ED habits to plunge back into my dangerous habits from before.
i don't know where this is going to head, and where it's going to lead me. i'm striving towards keeping fit this time. and yes, dropping pounds. guess i'm still never going to get away from the ageless need to lose. but this time at least i'm going to try to place fitness above losing weight.
i'm hovering between recovery and keeping my ED beside me sort of like a safety blanket.
and so even on good days i AM going to eat (300 cals)
though i really feel the temptation to do a fast along the way.
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so in summary, the plan is to stick to 2L of water each day, training 2-3 times a week, and eat < 900 cals a day and get at least 3 hours of hardcore studying done!
RAHH!