Saturday, October 22, 2011
scared.
death is so much scarier when you start to realise that it's not that you might die.
but that your actions are slowly killing the people around you.
the stress of dealing with me and all my problems
the stress and the worry, it's sapping their life away.
bad habits, creeping up upon their tired, fragmented bodies
seeping through their minds.
subversive, as the stream ebbs and sands away the banks of the creek
one day this dam will over flow
try harder.
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on a side note,
i was up to 53.5 (118lbs.) it was too dangerously close to 120.
now i'm back down to 52.5 which is 116 lbs again.
but the holidays are here, and i
1-2 kg per week for the first 3 weeks and then 1-0.5 kg per week for the next 3 weeks.
and then i'll see how things go.