Thursday, March 29, 2012
waited up all night for this.
a little bit scared.
exhilarated.
and just a tad apprehensive.
maybe i'm setting myself up for disaster.
maybe.
scared. a little more.
what if i say something wrong?
what if i read the wrong signs?
what if i led myself on?
stepped off the edge.
free falling
into my insecurities
reach out.
please
reach out.
i tumbled down the rabbit hole
following your smiles
your quick steps that disappeared,
that illusive white bunny
time is running out.
tripped over my own 2 feet
trying to play this game with you
off with my head.
wrong move.
and today the mad hatter's not here
to take that pain away.
if you dont want us,
just turn around
don't let me in, in the first place.
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ufck really. i didnt sleep for the whole of last night.
just waiting up to talk to someone.
who replied for about 5 minutes worth of conversation
dear heart, please just kill yourself and die on the spot.
fat hopes. he has better stuff to do.
get over your silly crush and move on with life.