Wednesday, January 2, 2013
i used to be so much more.
didn't we all?
until one of our clogs fell out of place.
it was always loose i guess.
only that we never realised it.
clattering inside us, something felt wrong.
some days i wish i could just rewind time,
to the precise moment where it all started.
to pull out that plug.
it's not normal. i just wish i could unthink all these thoughts.
White rice: carbs and fibre. high glycemic index.
not worth the calories.
Vegetables: fibre. stir fried. dubious source. potential for excessive amounts of oil to have been added.
pick through the stalks. pause for closer examination. bright sheen. better not.
not worth the risk.
Meat: protein. dubious source. scrutinise. decide that there's probably a whole ton of sneaky bits of fat hiding inside. skip. next course.
Soup: cream based? broth? quick calculation of the calories. peer over at my lunch mates.
weigh in the likelihood of them exclaiming and making a fuss over my lunch choices. not worth the hassle.
decide to get some soup.
wish i could just order something normal for once.